Being in the middle of a difficult tech chat, I was sure and certain at first of my stance, but as the call wore on so my confidence started to slip. I got the manager to check my thinking and was vindicated, but still it left me shaken, I thought I had left that old demon of self-doubt behind?
|Wild Blue Yonder?|
(I've got such a big set of changes coming up, and SOOOOO much to learn (a 59-page document detailing the 'overview' of the Software Developer training arrived in my inbox today - gulp!!). Not to mention OU assignments to plan and complete, tutorials to attend etc - you get the idea, right?). It just made me wonder where my confidence levels will be, or need to be, to succeed in this massive undertaking. Can I display the person that I need to be on the outside?
I think I just need to put a few more 'knowns' into the bag - the 'overview' has arrived before the confirmation of when and where the course, and subsequent placements etc, will be. And of course because I'm somewhat 'blazing the trail' as a lower-grade applicant, I'm maybe not in the same position even at the end as my compatriots on the course. So many questions to which I have no solid answers yet.
So for the moment I just have to keep doing what I'm doing, trying to make steady progress on the TMA. Tick - it's actually going pretty well to plan, even if sometimes reading the material does feel like wading through treacle!! (note to self - nobody likes treacle in the Washing Basket...)